Friday, November 4, 2011
you live you learn and you move on
so i have been kinda flopping or wallering around a bit lately. im sad for things that are no longer and missing things that were. then it hits me...get over it. a friend said to me today that you cant cry to her cause she just doesnt get it... she is not mean... she has just been through it all.. really she has. so get over it. its funny how we miss the things and people we had..(.some of the people)..you miss your past and the memories of it. its been a weird few years, beacause its been the hardest...damn hardest few years ever in my entire flipping life.and i know my story gets old and my rants are the same...and i know the complaints are the same. BUT its the walk im walking and the day im living. so my friend helped me today and she doesnt even know it! so im gonna suck it up move on. i will no longer go to the ones who hurt me only to continuelly be rejected..i have learned.& lived. these things were a wonderful chapter in my life..wonderful . but, thats just it. that chapter is done... and you dont continuelly read those chapters over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over...got my point? so im letting go..moving on and i will cherish all of my memories they are a part of who iam ...my smart friend has also said to me... look out your front windshield its huge and has everything you need...dont look in the rearview mirror its small because why look behind you when you have the beautiful new world in front of you..so im moving on not in anger ..not in hast. gratful for what it was and the time it was.. we all grow we all change and it doesnt mean that you have not held a place in my heart. i have many wishes and a few what ifs.